"have you come to terms with the fact that you've got a disability?"

is there a reason for this, somewhere?  

sleeping sickness

everything sucks.  i am getting nothing done, i am getting no where.  it feels like all i do lately is cry.  i wrote once that "i forgot how heavy the world could feel" but i feel it more and more now - like there is no light, no fix.  not anymore.
but im still trying to hope there is, somewhere.

things used to feel right.

today is not my day

even though we change, and we're all finding our own place in the world, 

we alll know, that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face,

we'll come to each other...

because no matter where this crazy world takes us,

nothing will ever change so much to the point that we are not friends.

"i don't know where i'm going from here, but i promise it won't be boring"

 

i set fire to the rain 

fields of gold

my morning duster.

i have a hate-on for october.  it's going to be one of the most stressful months of my life, i can already tell. it's hard to stay focused only on today because there's so much to be done, but i'm working on it.  i'm trying to enjoy the little things amongst all the big intimidating things, which is proving difficult as well.  like this morning, i woke up with that butterfly-anxious-excited-but-i-don't-know-why feeling again.  i think i just want to do so well, and underneath all the stress and panic and tears is the determination for something good.  i don't feel ready for work in january, but maybe after this semester pushes me i'll be ready.  everyone else before me has done this, so i should be able to as well, right?

little joys: this nail polish that my roommate let me borrow (thnx kira, best colour ever!)
the moustache mugs kira and i have been painting, which have proven quite the hit... otherwise now known as Morning Dusters - or Early Morning Dusters depening when you wake up.

thanksgiving and home in 5 days!

new matching pj pants for the roomies

this cd i just ripped to my computer which i have never listened to

MY CAT

knowing that i get to kiss&hug my love soon