link: i lost the ground beneath me
i feel i need to change so much. not that a whole lot is wrong with me, but as my highschool foods teacher used to scream at us (in an ever-so polite way): "the biggest room is the room for improvement." i will never forget. things can't always be perfect all the time, but oh do i wish they could be. i don't know what life will be like in a year from now, but i am trying to only hope for the best; i am trying to only hope.
one month until life gives me a twist once again. i don't know entirely how i feel about it. i know when fall comes, and the leaves turn red and come to the ground, and it's chilly out and i put my scarf on, i will be ready for classes. maybe not willing or able (ha! some HLSC humour...) but ready nonetheless. however, i will miss my love; i will miss his face in the morning and his hugs before our days begin. i will miss coming home to him everyday and sharing in everything that's happened, face to face. i will miss kisses and eating dinner together, walking together, and learning new things side by side. but i am greatful for the phone, and for skype, and for the good ol' fashioned mail box... but somedays, i will just want his face next to mine.
dad and brother are so lovely and it was good to see thenm; i haven't visted with them a whole lot lately and i feel bad. but i have a life here now too... which to choose? i will miss them.
it's hailing and my love is cold and wet. it's my job to feed him and keep him warm for now... so i'm off!
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